I hate February.

Somehow I thought that maybe since last year I was pretty burnt out on my job, and pretty burnt out on life in general, that that was the precise reason I hated February and this year would be different.

I was wrong.

My mood started going downhill about Tuesday and this week is no better. Not that it’s a bad mood, or really a sad mood. Just an off mood. I wanted to blame it today on a case of the Mondays, but I really don’t think that’s it.

I tried to cheer up by an M&M cookie from Subway. They’re discontinued. So I thought, ok, I’ll just get Mt. Dew, and their machine was out. Blast.

Our system has been up and down all day long, and right now I want nothing more than climb under my desk and take a nap.

Don’t get me wrong, I had a great weekend in Cincinnati, I had a super time with some close friends that I haven’t seen since the fall. We had some great sushi, I did some shopping and I even saw RENT with a good cast. Including the best Collins I think I’ve ever seen. But even then I found myself crying through the whole show. Not that I don’t normally cry at one point or another, but more often than not is not usually the case. Maybe I should just blame all this on that time of the month.

I don’t think that’s it either. Maybe I should blame it on that wonderful holiday coming up Monday, but really it’s just another day out of the year, and that’s not it either. Maybe I should blame it on the fact that I got called out yesterday by the worker at the Goodwill who said I did my hair different. No, I don’t actually know the girl working at the Goodwill, so that didn’t mean different from usual. That meant two different colors, that I had convinced myself was not THAT obvious. Guess I was wrong. So I dyed it again around midnight last night, and hopefully it’s at least a little better than it was. Still not perfect, but as long as I don’t look quite so obvious about it. Still don’t think that’s it though.

So maybe I’ll just blame it on February and make another Mellow February mixed CD like I did last year. I can start a collection. I’ll take into consideration any suggestions my dear readers have to offer. Right now we’ve got Keane, some B-side Damien Rice stuff and a little Chris Thile. I think I’m off to a good start. Best thing about this month so far. I'm not sure what that means when the highlight is collecting depressing music for a CD... but hey it's only Monday, and we're only a week in. It still has time to look up.